Let’s not forget that the little emotions are the great captains of our lives and we obey them without realizing it.
-Vincent van Gogh
Emotions are the worst sometimes. They tend to overcomplicate things. It’s amazing and also frustrating how the tiniest emotion or our own reaction to a moment can affect our entire mood or attitude towards life. Sometimes we get so caught up in anger, sadness, or rage, that we end up going round in circles with that particular emotion. Almost like on a hamster wheel or a tornado, consuming everything in its path. Eventually if we don’t try to control or rise above that emotion, it overpowers every facet of our lives.
Lately I’ve been struggling with finding joy and being hopeful. Sometimes I think our culture is drawn so much to the negative, that we ignore or overlook the positive, what brings us joy and hope. How easy it is to be sucked down into that black hole of negative thought. We tend to focus on the bad, on the what ifs, and let our fears, insecurities take over. So many times we allow ourselves to get worked up and dwell on things that in the long run really don’t matter. In these moments, I keep reminding myself that I have a choice whether to dwell on the negative, my anxieties, and fears or to choose hope and focus on the positives. So many times it is those tiny emotions or that small mind shift that make a huge difference in our attitude.
The other day, I was doing laundry, nothing really exciting about laundry. As I was loading clothes into the machine, I thought about how this time last year, the laundry was actually in the basement. For years, I wanted to move the laundry room to the main floor so I didn’t have to carry a basket up the stairs. I have to hold a railing when using stairs and doing that while carrying a basket was an adventure. I usually crawled up the stairs while carrying the basket which was a good ab workout but not always fun. Now with the laundry room on the main floor I don’t have to haul baskets up and down stairs anymore which is so nice. Although I kind of miss those ab workouts.
As ridiculous as it sounds, it was a long awaited dream come true for me. But after a year of laundry upstairs, how easy it is for me to take it for granted, to no longer be grateful for what I have. I guess my point is we all have a choice, to choose anger, to be anxious, or consumed with insecurities. Or to choose hope, to cultivate joy, and to be grateful. What will your choice be?
“There was never a night or a problem that could defeat sunrise or hope.”
-Bernard Williams