“We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand”
In my last blog, Blind Joy, I wrote about how I can now see 20/20 with my contact. It is truly incredible to see all the things that I’ve overlooked for years. However, a downfall of it is that when wearing my contact, I am extremely critical of myself! I look in the mirror and feel as though there is always something wrong. My hair is too frizzy, my eyes are red and misshapen. I need to wear more makeup because my cheeks look dead. My lip color looks like a hooker, I have a ginormous zit, and the list goes on and on. But after my momentary freak out and a little positive self-talk, I remind myself that beauty isn’t about outer appearance, it’s about who we are as a person.
I love being able to see so clearly with my new contact but isn’t it interesting how sometimes our senses tend to get the best of us. Our senses enable us to experience so much but they also cause us to judge others, to form opinions, both good and bad, and to focus only on what is directly in front of us and lose sight of what truly matters.
The other week, a friend asked if I close my eyes when I pray to which I said yes but not because I’m super holy but because it helps me focus. By taking away that one sense, I’m able to shut out all the distractions around me, at least those that are in my line of vision. I’m not busy looking at other people at church or if I’m at home, I’m not distracted by how dirty my room is or seeing what else I could be doing with my free time. By simply closing my eyes, it helps me to focus on what really matters to me and not be consumed by the unnecessary things surrounding me. And it is in my momentary loss of vision I am humbled and able to forget about my own stupid worries. It allows me to block out the world around me and focus on God.
Our senses enable us to gain different perspectives and constantly be aware of the world us. But when we take the opportunity to turn off our senses, we are able to shift our focus and see more clearly.
“If you plan to build a tall house of virtues, you must first lay deep foundations of humility.”